When you deliver the heart in spades , when promises of eternal love , life plans together and everything seems to be reciprocal , the pain becomes indescribable when everything falls apart.
It is painful to discover that what you thought was reciprocal it was not so , and that you loved so much more ... and still love .
Why?
Why the man I love me suffer like this?
How did your love and I finally realized no ?
Why I said that things were so serious , that were so serious ?
Never imagined and never thought that I would destroy both . It is very sad to have to pretend I do not feel much pain at others. Masking pain is not synonymous with feeling better . But " good education " , is it that you have to swallow everything to avoid giving pity to others? If so I think it's very sad , because there are things that one should not pretend like that of showing well . Although it is not my intention to walk drawn by the world's streets throwing her to die , so that others can see that I suffer and to have mercy on me, that is not my intention and that is not what I want. However, I would not have to pretend in front of my loved ones , simply because they "do not want to look like that " if you do not want to look like that then why look at me . And act subtly with one look at you and smile through hoping they 'll feel better , and you have to swallow back tears because nobody wants to see another mourn .
It is also true that this is how I take my responsibility, but pretend to think that everything is fine when your world was destroyed from time to time is too difficult.
Maybe that song is right when he says : " But there is always someone who loves more , and that someone is the loser more." I'm afraid I was the one who loved more , and not trying to diminish the other but it is also true that this ended because the other wanted it that way , because that other as yet stopped loving what I do. So who loved more ?
One had so much going through your head , begin to think about all that was good, in walking, in conversation, in laughter , in the plans ... and then you realize that none of it was worth , he never served plus when trying to save the love that 's dying. One says: "But you remember that? Remember I told you this was forever ? Remember I promised to always communicate ? Remember that talk about being tolerant of another ? Remember we said that there was nothing perfect in the world and that human was wrong ? " , And realize that it is useless that now is so tragic. Yes , tragic because it makes you die inside.
Even now , when the bags are packed and a ticket that is purchased me away , I hope to come to me: " Do not go, want you by my side." Is that going to happen ? No , I do not pass , and it will happen because I do not love though I have said it directly , but to let me go and it is obvious that.
It's sad how people intrudes , looking to separate so they do not talk "because if we talk we hurt ." Each pair is assumed , is different and each has its own dynamic , so if you need to talk and mourn , why not let that happen and why someone feels the duty and the right to decide whether to speak of such a thing or not? That's why they say, and rightly , that more than two crowd and the thing is not working.
It is assumed that also loves when resignation, the problem is when you do renounce force or you feel it as well .
I woke up today with the ghost of my journey , yes, it's a ghost because I feel that way to the guillotine with no hope of saving . Maybe I should resign myself to die , to die this love , to be finished from the heart .
" How long is 'forever' ? Sometimes , just a second " , says that famous literary work. Now I understand.
Why the man I love me suffer like this?
Is a question that I can not understand or respond . Maybe one day I can , maybe
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